imbecile...

who are you to help me....

to see the spirit torn to be free...?

who are you to solve my problems paltry or saturnine...

trying to seem so caring and divine...?

where were you, when i needed abutment...

and all i got was an exiguous resentment...?

only i know what it is to be me...

not from my problems ever i flee...

try as hard as i might to fathom...

lie i do, in the lowest substratum...

for those dreams are just an illusion...

caused by the mirage of a consummated delusion...

answers so meagre...inconsequential...incomplete

means but i find, are barely replete...

and then life goes on...purport less...

as i exist an existence...seem so worthless...

who are you to judge me...

only i can spoof my life...

oh don't you trudge me...

for it has but led me...to yet another strife...!!

:)

insensitive....

have i really become insensitive?

talking with my friends, SM and MA...i realised...i have changed a bit...

become insensitive...or rather should i say, indifferent...

now, is this a good thing...or bad....had a discussion wit UK...she thinks it's a good thing...but to a certain extent...

wat is sensitivity?

taking wat ur close friends say, to heart...?

letting yourself have close friends in the first place...?

doing things for the close friends...?

wanting them to reciprocate...?

turning back, after you say good bye...?

bringing a "gajra" for someone cuz they like it...?

but i somehow like this indifferent me...

i don feel bad if UK cancels a tekdi plan on d last minute...

i am least disturbed when a once-seemingly-close-friend..A.A...stops messaging...even though that messaging might've been restricted to forwards only...

i havent thought once bout d past..d x files..in a good, how-i-wish-i-got-those-days-back way...which is a bit strange..but well...d definition of strange and normal are changing...

i don feel it an obligation to attend family functions anymore...which apparently is bad...but then,who wants those pitiful looks...or those who are feeling happiness inside, showing sympathy outside....

which brings me to a different topic...these two-faced people...i simply can't stand em!

one chichora...who is a kalank on chichoregiri...actually laughed at mine n SM's failure...saying we toh were d "jaan" of gmcs...then how come we failed....

i mean...1.>gmcs and d exam are totally unrelated..

2.>this only shows that you were totally jealous of our masti-ki-capacity, during d sessions...and now that u see us failed, u got something to talk bout....i pity thee, DL...really do...

cant even say chullubhar pani me doob mar...it would be an insult for that molecule of water to be infested with you...

but anyways...i will be good to you....to your face...and be diplomatic....just like all the other two face diplomats running around in the guise of true chichore's....

anyways...

this brings me to the conclusion of this post...

diplomacy....indifference...d new mantra for a happier ME. :)

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failure....

failure teaches you a lot of things...

surprisingly with time and repetitive failure, you become "gende-ki-skin-ka" apparently...

this time i took it pretty well....numb for an hour or so...and then all preparatory....thinking ahead...

and now, i won't write any thing on d blog as to wat is gonna happen....cuz even i think i wont know it till it happens this time....

makes me go poetic... ;)

shame....guilt....ride high...

as yet again i sigh....

curse my bad luck as much i can...

but know i do, things didn't go as per the plan...

no distractions...diversions this time...

only this guilt..making my existence sublime...

said a wise soul...ride too high and you shall fall...

these beautiful things are not for you to enthrall...

determine your path of recovery...

and hope it will lead to fruition's discovery...

a wounded soul...battle-withered it lies...

yet it yearns to fight...with dreams it flies...

give me my sword of success...

not today shall i digress....

give me courage my noble friends...

coz this is where the feebleness ends...

pray for me..for i have on my mission left...

so that i bring back my accolade...leaving none bereft...!!!

thank you for your support friends...keep praying for me...i need all the help i can get today...

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"Betrayal" removed on humanitarian grounds... :P

taking my time...

trying to clear out all the haze...

thanks dad for undertanding n letting me be....

:)

~~da party~~

ummm...actually...d heading should be the partIES....damn! was it good fun or wat!!!

S n M threw one helluva party....awesome music...and dancing....and o curs...d chichore lox all around....

was more fun to make fun of M in d car...and to irritate S with d stupid jokes.....

and knowing me for a certain amount of time, readies you for the "level" of jokes that i divulge in....(read - you wont pull out your hair on my farty jokes after some days)...which is almost happening with S...

n well, ALMOST found my match in M, in d level of jokes...though mine stink d most...she comes a close second....

and it's awesome how these all-night parties go....i mean...everyone had such a blast!!!

cant ever find someone who can occupy d KNP compartment....now PD, of course... ;)

awesome atmosphere...coupled with awesome company...and you got an all-nighter coming your way....and wat a night it was...!!! :D

well, looking forward to meeting you chichora lox in d evening....

haha...and d chichora's r gonna live a hundred years....d "desi" chichora jus msgd....saala...boht jiyenge ye sab.....duniya ki khair nahi.....m sure we are gonna be banned from all places in Pune, eateries, coffee shops et al...by next month, at d rate at which we are going.... :P

and i thank all of my readers for their support...getting loadsa feedback on d blog....comments on the blog would also be welcome...

i shall strive to make the blog more reader-friendly, content-wise....this time, for sure....a conscious effort in that direction is forthcoming....

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100th entry

d blog turns 100 posts old today...

and i have so many feelings to reflect on...

there's d new found demand for me, in d commercial world...apparently i am worth loadsa big bucks....declined a really big paisewala offer....jus to stick to my decision of getting into one of the big4...and eventually practice....

there's a certain anger bout a certain @#$$@#$...@#$@#$@#$....#$%&^&*...etc..etc... (statutory warning - kids below 16 shouldn't read this dialogue)

oh..d warning should've come before the dialogue....and hey! there's no expletives in there....but then...why should....didn't i....and then she...ANYWAYS...

there's a small sadness for not being in touch with SD...m sorry bro...dint mean for you to find out from outside...but well...shit happens... ;)

and there's d happy realisation, that i got something to look forward to on d weekend....

got a party on saturday night!!! woohoo!!! :D

dunno how much fun it will be without the booze though....let's see...maybe i wont take my pet shravan with me there... :P

and d return of d chichore lox on sunday...let's see....IF i don take shravan along....n der's d ever-present mr.hangover d day after....then i might give d chichore's a pass....but no!!! i wanna be with them...

maybe i WILL take shravan along... :P

dunno....i wont fix till dat day...n you guys wont come to know...ever!!! :P

and i have got a treat forthcoming from a certain umbrella person soon...so another thing to look forward to!!!

yay!!!

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Love Aaj Kal...

a review...


awesome movie....IF u r able to ignore the unreal things in it....

i mean, it gives wrong hope to the losers, who think they can get back with that someone they lost...whereas wat i believe is, once u decide to separate, there's no going back....there's a Ross n Rachel only in sitcoms...

but i cant get over Deepika....i mean...she cant act..at all..but damn, is she beautiful or what!!! was ogling at her like a kid looking at candy...(with similar intentions in mind)...AHEM.

and well, as one o my frenz said, d people in their 40s look awesome! i mean...i am not one to compliment d male stars...but Saif...a class apart....awesome acting...wonderful dancing...and even better looks....

me and my friends made a few observations....interesting ones...and some pretty funny..

1.Meera calls Jai to talk to him, just after the wedding...and Jai ends up blabbering for the next 10 minutes, and goes away...same as is d case through out d movie...i mean, i know she cant speak well...but koi toh dialogue diya hota Deeps ko? :P

2.Meera realises that something is wrong with her marriage to dat loser guy(don rem. d name of d character) , in the morning, AFTER d suhaag raat....i think she found discrepancies in performaing capacities of Jai and d guy....and then found out...oh no! Jai was much better!!! :P

3. NO story beats that of Harleen and Veer....totally makes you nostalgic...and makes you wanna live in that era of sharam-haya.....loved d part where he tells d order of activity.....pyar>>izehaar>>bagawat>>shaadi.....awesome, no?

4. irony....deepika shown as d most logical and practical person in the world, in the first half....n she only waits like a fool, for Saifu to "realise"..."on his own"...and then come to her....ummm...well...argh!!! :P is this is wat love turns you into....god bless... ;)

5.Deepika....i mean, i love ur looks n all....but PLEASE learn acting...come to FTII even...i got some contacts on d inside there...maybe i can catch her in d midst of a shoot, and work my charms on her..... :P

and i just cracked d joke of d century!!! :D :P

but on d whole, dimaag baju me rakhke deepika ko dekhne k liye good movie.... :D

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life is suddenly so simple....


all those complications are gone....all doubts are cleared.....i can see through the haze...make out shapes...and even names...


how, why, n when....who comes in ur life....is a mystery....makes me wanna join a buddhist monastery.... :P


it's all bright now.....green...yellow....all pleasant....and the flow keeps coming on....and on....and on...


while i find within myself, a new shade of blue...none witnessed hitherto....bringing new meaning to the epitome of success...satisfaction...and love..............


love theeself....love thee lover.....and love thee life....


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