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being who you are...

talking wit a friend...nikki...stumbled upon some self realisations...and realised yet again, dat d realisations are never gonna cease to spring up, while talkin wit puja...d new "important" things...or jus d factors that "matter"...at a given point of time....tends to change wit situations and over time...

like today, wat might mean d world to me, wil mean nothing tmrw...

day after i might find something far more appealing to d mind, dat i had failed even to consider as material...

thankfully, as i spoke wit nikki, i realised dis is not d case wit my relations...not when it comes 2 those close to heart....i don strive for something new in them...rather i build upon them , and try 2 take some thing new in my stride...as in, when i am wit someone...wit dat special one...or jus a special friend...tiz not like tiz something dat was a challenge to be achieved, n once achieved i lose interest in it, n start lookin for something new...it jus means dat i make "her" or d friend a part of my lyf...n want to take em along wit me on dis journey...make them a part of me...make myself a part of their travels...and keep on evolving...

realised some things...realised, dat i have kept my mind closed 2 many emotions and personal traits...wile talkin wit a friend, realised dat i was seein only one aspect of a relationship dat d person shared wit d spouse...cuz it happens, dat d person tends to tell you only d negatives in dat aspect...n takes d positives for granted...dat de exist..

but wat happens wit me, is i focus on d negative aspect, and begin to see dat person only in d light of d facts and circumstances revealed to me...and began thinkin of him as a negative kinda guy...but on a little prodding yesterday, d good side of him was revealed to me...dat he is damn patient...sensitive...caring and understanding....

need to keep an open mind...and not concentrate on wat d person in front says, more than wat cud probably be d actual scenario...try n find all sides of anything....like in many things...cant write it down well...but tiz something like....d person in front says something...and you make a strong impression in ur mind...based on d person's statements...and dat turns out to be otherwise, more often than not...cuz d person in front is jus tryin 2 impress his/her opinion on you...and u end up thinkin it to be d only one...whereas u need 2 actually explore all d posibilities...try to see everything from a neutral perspective...and most of all, believ in d goodness of people....cuz if u cant see dat, u r doomed to see only d negatives around you....and then, god bless... :P

but then, also realised, dat some relations are inexplicable...why we form a good friendship in very short spans of times....Aravind...met him for like, 3-4 times...and feel an inexplicable connection to him....maybe i have this thing bout south indians....jus find em damn endearing...der's also our very own AirWind...but then he's someone anybody wud like to be in the company of.... ;)

tiz funny how males bond...we dont need no emo stuf...don need common ground...we have a very limited threshold for bonding....sports...bikes...cars...and crazy stuff we have done...or claim to have done...(most o em make it up...for lack of "happening" stuf in deir lives, or merely to cope up wit peer pressure)

and dat makes our bond damn strong...we don need no emotional attachment...we are not difficult to understand for each other...we simply exist...and can jus hang around...talkin nothin...n jus be....

like mithila used 2 say...we guys can jus hang around, in a cafe...each lost in his phone or similar gadget...when someone comes, d conversation is like...hey man...whadup...followed by manly displays, like shaking hands so tight, dat i always feel either of us is gonna end up using iodex at night...or jus givin d occasional bear hug...and den, we sit...and jabber away at our gadgets..

which reminds me....saw d new Nokia 5800 express music....damn neat piece man....damn you puja...m jealous u own dat phone...cuz for d first time ever in my lyf, have i liked a nokia phone...n dat too so much..i mean..damn! de've taken out all d fallacies in other similar phones...and tiz available at such a low price tag too!!!

newys, bac 2 d topic...tiz not like we dont talk at all....der wil b d occasional..."didja know, X hooked up wit Y..? damn hot chick dat Y i tell you..." followed by a graphic description of specifics that attracted attention to d aforementioned...and then bac 2 d gadgets....

ah...how i miss doin that....but over time, i realised, dat i couldnt do dat for too long either...i needed 2 have some fodder for d mind...and dat is how i ended up penning..rather keyboarding thoughts, onto my plog...(comp log for the uninitiated..something akin to a web log..only this is on my home machine...)

which turned into this blog over time...

and i keep pondering...and writing...and askin ppl 2 read my blog...half of whom jus gimme>> "damn neat man...u got a good style o writin"

n den silence...no further action on it...

so have decided 2 make d blog a bit more "aesthetic" and akin to ppl's views...

but wil i want to be swarmed wit attention on my blog?

naah...

let's jus let things be as they are...

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cheers! :D