to think i loved her once.....


she has changed not a bit.....but i have.....n i see things more clearly now....put in perspective.....she never was worth me.......never did deserve me.......


well,all that one can think now is-thank god i got out.....rather she pushed me out,but THANK GOD she did!!!

i think she somewhere understood that she wasn't deserving enough,or i did not deserve the torture....!!!! ;)

thank you very much.
i believe i shall be happier this way.....wiser by time............more mature from experience....


thank you....thanx a lot......

njoy lyf!!!! (no,dat LYF doesn't mean what u think it does) :p

n again ..... njoy lyf!!!!!

life's amazing man!!!!

new things....new work....
as usual,always something new to do....... :D


njoy lyf man!!!!

njoy lyf!!!!

sumthing new....sumthin xcitin....sumthin dat makes u wanna do things for another day....some fallacies,some achievements,life..................



well,jus posting cuz tiz been a long time now.......

jus gettin a bit too bored wit not postin on d blog.... ;)


so,c ya l8r,alligator.....
c ya in a while,crocodile......

n other things to the same effect......


NJOY LYF!!!!! :D

every day brings with it a new experience.....a new thought...a new person to meet.....a new process to begin......a new beginning......

weneva one thinks about d past,its not always happiness dat it brngs....it brings back some memories...some feelings....some hatred.....some anger.....some boredom.......some hopes......wishes...drreams....n much more.....

d more you think bout d past,d more you tend to get a different perspective..each time......complete strangers help you.....they jus sit wit you 4 a while....don say everything's ok...but its jus their presence dat makes you feel good.......unexpected persons.....you look at them,n just somehow know,what that person thinks...what he feels....what he does,n gets.....what his life is,basically......a peek into different lives.....it gives you immense pleasure....jus d freshness of that way of looking at life......what they have...what they dont....what they cherish...their dreams........everything....

it helps to think about others,for a change,once in a while....its better dan jus feelin gloomy bout ur own lame life....or maybe it may not be dat bad......you see so many things around you,that make you feel you aren't so unlucky......n then there r always those more lucky than you....that's life.....you see....you comprehend....you learn.....n life goes on.......

d nostalgia of d past makes you feel like crying......a wary tear or two drop out of your eyes....then you straighten up...lest someone steal a look into your moment in the past....n then you feel,did i really have such a good thing? or was i jus playin games with myself,in my mind....you speak......you wonder....you think.......

but life goes on.......


then one day......you gotta go, ya know.....but nobody thinks of that....they just think about their lives.....not bout others....yes,some do....but that is also from a selfish point of view,to satisfy their own need of giving back to those who have given them something.....

nobody's born bad.......its d circumstances that make them like that.........like this one person who thinks dat he is destined to be great......after all,everyone in his family is great,arent they?
but what he doesn't realise is that in his craze to be great,he hurts a million others....some too deeply.....some recover....some take a longer time......some just cant!!!!
but that person goes on n on....he feels he is doing what is right....but is he?
time will tell........all we can do,is hope that he is right,for his own sake....n we continue our lives........but will we meet that person again? god knows.....cuz maybe he is there somewhere,directing this play called our lives......hope u r reading this,director.......


last but not least....

NJOY LYF!!!! :-D

LYF!!!!!

its amazin ppl......new friends....new aims...new things 2 do......new "interests".....


well,dis new interest dat i've found in AJ seems to be good......never knew a person cud b so different,yet jus lik me!!! n so beautifull too......inner - outer....both beauties personified......


n well,den out of nowhere,dis question comes 2 Aj...wat if v r never destined 2 meet....destiny.....i HATE things outta my control!!!!
i luv bein in charge,n control.....

but if its destined dat v never meet,well....Aj....2 b frank,i'll not be any of ur rona-dhona kinds,k?
but yes,will feel sad......n yes,will also cry at d end o me life,for not havng met an angel,in my lifespan.....a true n blue angel........

i wud luv 2 meet ya....let's c wen v get dat....


now 2 other things,1c 've cleared d main issue,d side dishes....
well,isnt it really difficult to do d right thing? n sooooo easy 2 get lured to do d wrong things......
but believe me wen i say dat doin d right thing gives you a satisfaction like none other........say things n do stuff you feel is right....confused..? ask sum1 who might b ready 2 listen to you.........dunno wat 2 do..? ask sum1 again.......everyone has dat special sum1,who listens to you,talks to you,wants to share ur problms....wants 2 cry wid you,laugh wit you.....basically share your whole life...!!!!

though some get dat 1 easily,i've had 2 struggle....n i found dat person in more dan 1 human being......1 of 'em bein my dear Angel,AJ......n der's me sis,mum n 1 very close bro-friend....

try to do what is right.....do it wit a pure conscience,n you'll always be happy....n keep others happy......



last of all,as usual - NJOY LYF!!!!!

ever felt scared?

not understanding what u r scared of?
PAJ u r scaring me man!!!!
so many similarities!!!!

i cant bear it man!!!
was actually scared y'day night...scared SHITLESS!!!!

i dunno wat hap'd but m scared.....

blank.......freaked out......

where m i goin?
what's up wit me?
what's happenin 2 me?
why m i scared of nothing,n everything?
m is really scared....or just confused?
m scared 2 get close to any1,for fear of gettin seperated again....i dont hav d enrgy 2 revive myself if i hav 2 bear anopther person go away 4m me.....n u r magical man!!!

dat's wat scares me more....i kno i'll get 2 used 2 u....den i won b able 2 break away easily.....

it all comes back 2 me....d depression,sadness......dark thoughts....
bad feelings bout dat 1.....
only recently hav i been able 2 forget dat earlier 1....can i take another 1?
no.
i am scared,AJ......

i don wana be hurt again...fall again....i m sure dis time i wont b able 2 get up on my own....or get up at all...........................


why does dis happen 2 me?

scared.


DAMN SCARED!!!!!!!!!! :(

in a mood to write today....just maybe cuz i hav no work to do......but still........


so,met an old friend of mine,after a long time.........joglya,for those of u who know him....

he told me dat a certain common friend of our left PUMBA,on d second day in college....!!!!!!!


how can u even think of dat wen it's lik a dream for you,n you have been toiling real hard for that aim,for a looooooong time....!!!!!!!????!!!!!

he's craazy man!!!!!
really is....!!!!


accordin 2 joglya,it was cuz some1 must'v ragged him........so what???!!!!!!!


he's crazy man!!! craaaaazzzzyyyyyy!!!!!

n den,MBA sounds loadsa fun,but not so interesting,either....cuz u hav 2 do math!!!

i hate it,though i m pretty well at it....but still......
so will have to postpone,or cancel any thoughts of pursuing an MBA in d future....or else reconsider my math plight.....wat say...? ;)

n of curs,d business is goin on well,al i hav 2 do is contribute,n manage it well....let's c where d future takes me.........


for now,adieos amigos.......

njoy LYF!!!! :-D

life..........no one knows what to make of it....really.....
it's just that some of us are better at bluffing their way out,as if they know what they are,what they'r meant to do, n what they wanna do....

it's all lies.......in reality,every1 is as unsure of things,as anyone else...!!!

dont believe me,do you....?

for starters,what do you wanna do...?
study now,earn money,n then be happy forever after....right...?

well,what are you gonna study...? how much are you gonna,n in which manner.....

ok,if u kno dat,how will you earn money...? by working,of curs!!!
but doing what....? are you sure of what's gonna happen tomorrow...?


what if u decide to do smethin different...what if u cant do what you decide to....or what if you are no longer here tomorrow......????!!!!!!


then u might say,why are you givin dis sermon......?

i say-live life 2 d fullest.....explore new possibilities......try new things.....live lyf!!!!

see a sad person,try n cheer him up....see someone very happy,join them in d celebrations....
see someone toilin hard,join 'em in thier endeavour....

live lyf man!!!! liv lyf!!

hmmm....

life really is strange........you meet people you never thought existed on this earth,n then they make their existence felt so STRONGLY,that you cant ignore 'em....!!!!

unexpected things happen,and you are simply STUNNED!!! not sad,not guilty,not sorry....simply STUMPED!!!!


the things people do,n they say....................unimaginable.....



i simply wish to say-never judge a book by it's cover......looks can be quite deceiving....

people are very different than what they seem at first glance......initially i thought this person i met was just another chick roamin around in d lanes of another cyber community......
but things were meant to be different....

she became a very gud friend.....albeit a bit too frank....but i can live with that......
this section is dedicated to you,AJ.......hope u read it.....

you are a wonderful person....nevertheless a bit toooo naughty,but a gud person at heart,n that's what matters........
you have no idea how happy i have been since we became friends.....i m always fresh and full of energy,cuz u made me feel good.....made me feel wanted,liked...loved........

you are too good girl.......

cheerio to our friendship.......njoy lyf......!!!!


hav a blast people.....life is short....enjoy it thoroughly,n never miss an opportunity to say these words,,,,

thanx.....
sorry.....
i love you....



njoy LYF!!!!!!!!! :-D

is this life?

i guess it is.

you don mean to,but you do some stuff.....hurt some1......

never mean to do something bad,but it jus happens....

but then are you paying back to d world what you tuk?

are you being true to yourself? if not,be careful,cuz u can lie 2 every1,but not urself....

be true to yourself,n nothing will give you more pleasure!!!!

believe me-i hav been very true to myself in d recent past,n nothing can compare to what i feel now.

the feeling of satisfaction,pleasure, n true fulfilment can come only when you have been true to yourself.

believe in what you are,n what you do..........life will surely become better!!!!


njoy lyf!!!!!!

:)

who am i.....?????

this question just popped into my mind,d other day....
what am i meant to do.....?
will i ever be able to fulfil al me commitments?
will i be able to succeed in life?
will i earn loadsa money?
will my parents be happy with me....?
will i enjoy LYF...???

will i get da 1....???
empty minds r d devil's workshops....how true.....

so many questions.....n no answers....

will i be able to be "normal" again?

will this crumpled up paper be perfect again....(thanx LP).....?

questions and confusions....
shud i let go,n do wat i feel like,or restrict myself...?
experience says dat d more i do as my heart tells me,d more i get depressed,rejected, dissapointed.....USED....!!!!!!!

but does that mean i hav to giv up on my life?

is there something beyond the image in front of me,behind me,around me......????
is there something i cant c....?or does someone not want me to see something?
or is it just some games my mind is again playing with me?

yes it is,i guess.....after all of this,haven't you had enuf,you DEVIL of a mind?????
.....STOP....STOP.......STOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOP

just STOP!!!!!!!!!


will i be able to stop?


questions.........................................................................................................................................................

hmmm......

good time for thinking,studies, work...
work!!!

it's gettin better by the day!!!!

anyways,if anyone does read this shit i write,i m sorry to inform you,but i will not be posting anymore stuff anytime soon....

not that anyone does read this,but if there is a fool doing so,i m havin a damn busy schedule now man!!
so,c ya l8r.....

njoy life!!!!

hello there reader....

been a while since i wrote something really good...

so,there's this guy i know,who can go on n on n on n on with PJ's....
here r a fewe excerpts....

10 birds r sittin on a tree...a hunter comes n shoots a bullet....it doesn't hit any one,but 9 birds fly away....
but 1 remains seated....why?

no,he's not deaf,neither is he blind....

can u guess....??????

d answer G@@NDM@$T!....

hehehehe.....

sorry,if u wer offended by d use of expletive,but cant help it....hav gotten too used to it....



another one...

if a chicken gives one egg-a-day,how many will she give in a week...????


any guesses...???

think...think.....????

answer is 5.5...!!!

how,you ask...???

5 weekdays,half day on saturday,n sunday holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heheheheheheh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok,ok...please don start kickin my ass even in ur imagination!!!!
it hurts man!!!!


njoy life!!!!

hmm....
now that i m feeling better,should i plan about my future?

sure!!!!

well,as for the very near future-it's already laid out....work...work...work....n som more work....!!!!
till october 25th or so...
then studies in full swing....

n hey,i dint know i'd get d opportunity to buy mum a cell so soon!!!! too good man!!!

to al my friends out der,m changin ma cell no-n if u matter 2 me,u'll surely be gettin d new no...

so,m buyin mum a new cell on saturday,n myself a new card....gettin d family 2gether if u may.... ;)

n hey,goin 2 GOA on 4th december!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n dat too till 9th dec...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


how cool is that???!!!!
n also drivin d car there....more fun!!!!!!

life is just too kind man!!!!!
i just hope i m able 2 study enuf 2 clear my 1st Sem wit gud marks.....


n yes,d girls issue-dis female in ma colony seems 2 b hooked on 2 me!!!! n d female in college is surely takin my bait....!!!!

but wwaittttt.....whom m i fooling?
m i gonna be serious ever again????!!!!!

NEVER!!!!!!

m still sufferin d after effects of my past mistakes....still reeling under the thought process....still trying 2 get over it.....TiMe.......d answer....

but i still wish things hadn't gone wrong....dat all dat happened hadn't happened.....i still do have hope,but m not sure whether the "other side" is on my side,ya know.... ;)

newys,enuf of cribbing!!!
've had my share,haven't i....?

tmrw's shrama parihar....FiNaLLY!!!!!

gonna enjoy each bit of it...if i m able to reach der in time,cuz then i got office tmrw....till late night,due 2 audit finalisation!!!!!

let's see....

i love gprs technology man!!!!
too bad m gonna hav 2 giv it up in 2-3 days.....

doesn't matter-5000 sms free is not a smal thing!!!

for those of you trying to make sense of what i m writin-PLs don eVeN TrY!!!!!!

cuz even i dunno wat m writin!!!

n hey,by d way, i LoVe AsTeRiX!!!!!!!!

got d e-books....you have to read them people!!!!

n last,but not d least.......NJOY LIFE!!!!

LIVE LIFE 2 D FULLEST-AFTER ALL YOU ONLY GET ONE!!!!!


HAV A BLAST!!!!!

life is gr8 man!!!!

enjoy it 2 da core!!!!

HAVE A BLAST!!!!

it's not worth wasting on ANY1!!!!

so hav a chilled beer,take a swig 4m dat cigar,n njoy!!! (not me,OF COURSE!!!!)

guys,njoy life!!!!!!

why can't i let go?

will try real hard now...
hope i succeed this time....

WoW!!!

life is gr8 man!!
just when you are damn low on life n feelin lonely,a new set of friends comes along!

n then you feel stupid for having felt sad in the first place!!

you thought you would be depressed for a long time...but you were so wrong!!!!

now you hav so many things to do....new people to meet....new possibilities to explore!!!!


it's a highly true saying in Marathi - je hota te changlyasathich hota...!!!!

how true....whatever happens,it is for the better only!!!
no more sadness...no more negative feelings....all that remains is to gather all the good times around you,n live with them forever!!!

always remember the good times you've had wit friends,n you wont miss em...

a friend turned sour? remember him/her by the good times you've had before things went awry....
n yes awry,not wrong...cuZ it's meant to become better...things will surely improve soon enough!!!

TiMe...!!!
the most influential medicine of all,for mental ailments....

jus giv it time n things'll improve....


hav a BLaST!!!!!


ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!

wish i could undo the things i did....
all i said....

i was so confused!!! so deprived...

wish some things had gotten clarified before....wish i could turn back time.....

hope you get everything you want...my angel....

thanx to a friend who helped me cope the feeling of sadness...n also helped me come over the temptation of pushing myself into darkness!!!!

2 u Shantanu....

Why do we need to have anything in LIFE at all?

i mean,it's all gonna end....then why the desires,the ambitions,the urges?
the drives?
the commitments..........why anything...?n why everything?

am i gonna take with me any of these things?


but then----i want to live LIFE 2 d fullest.....enjoy every moment of it.....

i was highly tempted to go over to the dark side of life.....but i couldn't!!!!

my optimism just wouldn't let me!!!

i wanna hav loadsa money.....wanna be HAPPY......wanna have something in my life by which people will remember me....

do some good deeds.....be enthusiastic.....touch others' lives.....give them hope....

i know that its all gonna end with me....but might as well make the most of what i have.......whatever small contribution i can make.....it will surely be remembered by SOMEONE!!!! if not lotsa people,i wanna be remembered by at least one person n that person should say- HARSHAD...? he was a good man....i do miss not having him here....

make a difference to some paople in this crowded place....make them realise my presence....make them see n feel new things....experience new emotions n take them to new levels of happiness.....relaxation.....enjoyment....
basically nourish their lives to achieve my selfish goals of achieving remembrance....

ain't i bein selfish? - yes.
but also good......i'd say yes.....

but will this be worth any of the trouble i'll go through...?

EVERY BIT OF IT!!!!!

you have given up all hope when something really surprising comes up!!!!!

never expect the unexpected!!!!


life couldn't be better!!!!

no more questions....no doubts....no suspicions....no ifs n no buts...!!!!!


this is the way life is to be really lived!!!!!


enjoy life!!!!